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There, somewhere deep within my flesh,
An animal hides in its creche.
The beast, and longing is its name,
that feast and furrows through my frame.
It rages, scratches, bites and screams,
and burrows through my innard seams.
The thing, it leaves me no respite.
I bait it close and grab it tight.
"I have you now. Now you are mine!
I'll smash your skull in, little mite!"
"No, spare me! Don't blame me at all!
I'm just a feral animal!"

The beast, it whispers in my ear:
"I offer you a bargain here.
I'm stuck inside your flesh for good,
but if you spare my life, I would
Not bite and scratch you anymore
and kill that hollow feeling there.
Yes, you will never be alone,
I will be with you for all time.
I ponder this and think that's best:
"Maybe won't find another beast."
I strike the deal, I hear its plea.
This well be so, so it shall be.

The beast curls up, makes itself small
and rolls into a tiny ball.
So sleeps the beast, through month and year
And often I forget it's there.
Yet seven years in on the day,
it's gone! But over where it lay,
there is a fine, white, wispy shell.
Where might the beast have gone to now?
But if I listen, don't I hear,
a throbbing from that cotton here?
I put off pondering on that,
but on some nights, I lie awake.
And it grows stronger, day by day.
Already like a drum beat, quake.
My head will break, will burst of hurt -
Be quiet, cursed, thund'ring heart!

But woe! The shell lies empty for
your old beast died, it is no more.
Instead there is, I don't know what.
A figure, sallow as a corpse,
with blackest wings, enormous.
I ask myself "What could that be?
What evil being do I see?
Oh, by my soul - a butterfly."
Its eyes stare at me, filled with rage
and thirst - I know it wants my blood.
It opens up its mouth to kiss,
I know that now I have to die.
It softly smiles and bows to me
and whispers to me, quietly:
"Is not my fault! No blame at all...
I'm just a feral animal!"

Did you miss me?
Did you miss me?


Dort irgendwo ganz tief in mir,
Verbirgt sich dieses alte Tier.
Es ist das Tier, das Sehnsucht heißt,
Das sich durch meinen Körper beißt.
Es wütet, kratzt und beißt und kreischt
Und wühlt sich durch mein weiches Fleisch.
Das Vieh, es läßt mir keine Ruh'.
Ich lock' es an und greife zu.
"Jetzt hab' ich dich! Jetzt bist du mein!
Ich schlage dir den Schädel ein!"
"Nein tu mir nichts! Kann nichts dafür,
Ich bin doch nur ein wildes Tier."

Das Tier, es flüstert in mein Ohr:
"Ich schlag' dir einen Handel vor.
Ich stecke leider in dir fest,
Jedoch, wenn du mich leben läßt,
Kein Beißen und kein Wüten mehr.
Dafür fühlst du dich nie mehr leer,
Dafür bist du nie mehr allein,
Ich werde immer in dir sein."
Ich sinne nach und denk' bei mir:
"Vielleicht find' ich nie mehr ein Tier."
Ich schlage ein, erhör' sein Flehen.
So soll es sein, so soll's geschehen.

Es legt sich hin, macht sich ganz klein,
Rollt sich zu einer Kugel ein.
So schläft das Tier dann Jahr um Jahr
Und oft vergess' ich's ganz und gar.
Im siebten Jahr an einem Tag
Da ist es fort! Doch wo es lag,
Liegt ein Gespinst ganz weiß und fein.
Wo mag das Tier geblieben sein?
Doch höre ich nicht, wenn ich lausch',
Ein Pochen aus dem Wattebausch?
Ich denk nicht weiter drüber nach,
Nur ab und zu lieg' ich nachts wach.
Und es wird stärker jeden Tag.
Schon klingt es wie ein Paukenschlag.
Mein Kopf platzt gleich, er birst vor Schmerz
Schweig still, verfluchtes Donnerherz!

Doch wehe! der Kokon ist leer,
Das alte Vieh, es ist nicht mehr.
Stattdessen steht, ich weiß nicht, was.
Eine Gestalt, so leichenblaß,
Mit schwarzen Schwingen riesengroß.
Ich frage mich: "Was ist das bloß?
Was ist das für ein böses Ding?
Bei meiner Seel! Ein Schmetterling!"
Die Augen seh'n mich voller Wut
Und Durst, ich weiß, er will mein Blut.
Er öffnet seinen Mund zum Kuss,
Ich weiß, daß ich jetzt sterben muss.
Er lächelt sanft und beugt sich vor
Und flüstert leise in mein Ohr:
"Nicht meine Schuld! Kann nichts dafür,
Ich bin doch nur ein wildes Tier."

Hast Du mich vermisst?
Hast Du mich vermisst?
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Reinself Featured By Owner Mar 3, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
seelengrau Featured By Owner Mar 4, 2017
thank you very much :aww:
wyrmfed Featured By Owner Feb 26, 2017
So many great images to pull from those lyrics. You picked a good one. 
Those rich, moist colors are wonderfully showcased. 
seelengrau Featured By Owner Feb 27, 2017
mhm it's a very metaphoric story behind, i agree.
it's not an exact line but i thought it would fit and i like the idiom 'it grows on you' in the sense of getting used to it (in this case hm maybe anxiety, depression, ...).
thanks for reading the lyrics!
wyrmfed Featured By Owner Feb 27, 2017
Right, if I heard the lyrics before seeing your photo I would have imagined a different beast. 
But seeing the picture first, it influenced my thoughts and fit the song.  

Are the lyrics from somewhere other than this song? The translation looks like a professional poetry job, both versions rhyme. 

When I first saw the pic I thought, "Medusa fingers!"  :]
seelengrau Featured By Owner Feb 28, 2017
medusa fingers sounds cool :]
the cames out of my head. i agree the monster from the song i imaginge more like a weird, creepy, hairy butterfly :D

mhm someone did a good translation job on this one :]
wyrmfed Featured By Owner Feb 28, 2017
Yeah, I didn't think the translation of a modern rock song would get such attention. 
So, I thought maybe it was an old poem.
Did you translate it?
seelengrau Featured By Owner Feb 28, 2017
no i couldn't do that :P
Aya-Lunar Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2017   Traditional Artist
Oh another great one!! Great idea!
seelengrau Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2017
thank you very much, dear aya :blackrose:
zingzangzu Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2017
seelengrau Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2017
thank you (:
SophieDereal Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2017 silence...and when you discover's too late...
seelengrau Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2017
yes often ....
SophieDereal Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2017
10-dave1 Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2017
If I was a bird,I'd be in heaven!!
seelengrau Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2017
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